.In.Love.With.The.Moonlight.

MMM girl

Sat, 25 May 2013 15:10:18 -0400

MMM girl

Gorgeous.<3

Sat, 25 May 2013 15:09:13 -0400

Gorgeous.<3

Hi. I came across your blog and i was looking through it and I just wanna let you know that I think you're really special and beautiful. It looks like the world has hurt you a lot but its important to stay positive and live through it because life gets better after high school. I'm always here if you need to talk!

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 22:54:59 -0400

Thank you so much, that means a lot to me. I hate it when people say “someone you don’t know and have never met can’t be your friend.” Being someone’s friend isn’t about just how well you know them, it’s about being there for them and just plain caring. It may not be offering much, but i will be your friend.

I’m glad to know there is SOMEONE out there that will listen.

Thank you.

BORED.<3

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 19:34:47 -0400

SKIP 1 AND 2 LOL

3: 3 Fears: Dark, windows, semi trucks

4: 3 things I love: My boyfriend, my kitty, sleep

5: 4 turn ons: When my boyfriend: bites neck, bites lip, kisses body,

6: 4 turns off: Facial hair, smoking, feet, parents

7: My best friend: Don’t have one…

8: Sexual orientation: Straight

9: My best first date: Movies

10: How tall am I: 5’5”

11: What do I miss: my old school

12: What time were I born: 9:55 a.m.

13: Favorite color: Green

14: Do I have a crush: Yes. My Boyfriend.

15: Favorite quote: H.O.P.E. Hold On, Pain Ends.

16: Favorite place: Oshkosh, Wisconsin

17: Favorite food: Chicken

18: Do I use sarcasm: NOOOOOOOO!….haha yeah

19: What am I listening to right now: The TV

20: First thing I notice in new person: Smile

21: Shoe size: 8

22: Eye color: Green

23: Hair color: Brown

24: Favorite style of clothing: Hollister

25: Ever done a prank call?: Yes

27: Meaning behind my URL: nothing really

28: Favorite movie: Phantom of the Opera

29: Favorite song: Caught Like a Fly by Falling In Reverse

30: Favorite band/artist: Maroon 5/Erik Hassle

31: How I feel right now: Depressed

32: Someone I love: Warren Bouteiller.<3

33: My current relationship status: Taken

34: My relationship with my parents: Uhm, idk? lol

35: Favorite holiday: Christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing i have: None

37: Tattoos and piercing i want: Snakebites. “H.O.P.E.” tattooed on my wrist.

38: The reason I joined Tumblr: I heard it was fun

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: Well he hates me…

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: Yes.<3

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: Yes…

42: When did I last hold hands?: Right now.

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: 45 minutes

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: No…

45: Where am I right now?: Home on the couch.

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: Uhm, idk?

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Loud.

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? With my mom

49: Am I excited for anything? Spring Break

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? Yes.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? A lot.

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? 5 minutes ago.

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: I’D KILL THE FAT BITCH.

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: No.

55: What is something I disliked about today?: FAT UGLY people with stupid hair and faces.

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: Ronnie Radke

57: What do I think about most?: My future/past.

58: What’s my strangest talent?: Burping

59: Do I have any strange phobias?: Being scared of fish.

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: Behind.

61: What was the last lie I told?: No one was in the car with me, Mom.

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: Phone.

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: Yes. No.

64: Do I believe in magic?: No.

65: Do I believe in luck?: Yes.

66: What’s the weather like right now?: FUCKING COLD.

67: What was the last book I’ve read?: Divergent.

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: MOTHERFUCKER NO.

69: Do I have any nicknames?: Ray Ray. Bohn Bohn. Babygirl.<3 Rach.

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?: Sprained my anckles.

71: Do I spend money or save it?: Try to save, but usually spend.

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?: No.

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?: Yes.

74: Favorite animal?: Turtle/Panda/Kittens.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: Sleeping.

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?: Penis.

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: One More Night by Maroon 5.

78: How can you win my heart?: You can’t. It’s taken.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: H.O.P.E.

80: What is my favorite word?: Hope.

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: uhm, idk?

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: FUCK YOU.

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?: No.

84: I accidentally ate some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: Read minds.

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: Mom: Did you and Warren have sex?!?! Me: No………..

86: What is my current desktop picture?: My kitty.

87: Had sex?: Yah.

88: Bought condoms?: Yah. LOL.

89: Gotten pregnant?: fuck no.

90: Failed a class?: No.

91: Kissed a boy? Yus.

92: Kissed a girl? Yupp.

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Nope.

94: Had job?: Yes.

95: Left the house without my wallet?: Yes.

96: Bullied someone on the internet?: No.

97: Had sex in public?: YES HAHA

98: Played on a sports team?: Nope.

99: Smoked weed?: Yes.

100: Did drugs?: Yes.

101: Smoked cigarettes?: Yes.

102: Drank alcohol?: Yes.

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: No.

104: Been overweight?: Yes.

105: Been underweight?: No.

106: Been to a wedding?: Yes.

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: Yes.

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?: Yes.

109: Been outside my home country?: No

110: Gotten my heart broken?: Yes.

111: Been to a professional sports game?: Yes.

112: Broken a bone?: No.

113: Cut myself?: Yes.

114: Been to prom?: I will this year.<3

115: Been in an airplane?: No.

116: Fly by helicopter?: No.

117: What concerts have I been to?: LiFest 2011&2012, Weird Al, Allstar Weekend, etc.

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?: Yes.

119: Learned another language?: Learning Latin.

120: Wore make up?: Everyday.

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?: Yes. At 16.

122: Had oral sex?: Yes.

123: Dyed my hair?: Yes.

124: Voted in a presidential election?: No.

125: Rode in an ambulance?: No.

126: Had a surgery?: No.

127: Met someone famous?: Yes.

128: Stalked someone on a social network?: No.

129: Peed outside?: No.

130: Been fishing?: Yes.

131: Helped with charity?: Yes.

132: Been rejected by a crush?: Yes.

133: Broken a mirror?: Yes.

134: What do I want for birthday?: A BIG BOOTY HOE. Jk. I just want money.

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?: I don’t want kids.

136: Was I named after anyone?: No.

137: Do I like my handwriting?: Not really.

138: What was my favorite toy as a child?: Polly Pockets.

139: Favorite TV Show?: Sooo many. Kyle XY, Heroes, Supernatural, The Hills, One Tree Hill, Pokemon, Once Upon A Time, Teen Titans, etc.

140: Where do I want to live when older?: The U.K. would be nice.

141: Play any musical instrument?: Nope.

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?: Self harming.

143: Favorite pizza topping?: Just cheese.

144: Am I afraid of the dark?: YUS.

145: Am I afraid of heights?: Nope.

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?: No.

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?: Yupp.

148: What I’m really bad at?: Controlling anger and jealousy.

149: What my greatest achievements are: Finding the most perfect and amazing guy who makes my life worth living.<3

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me?: To kill myself.

151: What I’d do if I won in the lottery: Go out with my boyfriend and blow it all.<3

152: What do I like about myself: ………………………………………

153: My closest Tumblr friend: No one specific

154: Something I fantasize about: Nothing really.

Anytime anyone needs someone to talk to, about anything, i am...

Sat, 02 Mar 2013 10:24:00 -0500

Anytime anyone needs someone to talk to, about anything, i am here. message my ask box. Anon or not, it doesn’t matter. i’ll still be here.

~RRB.<3

PLEASE READ

Sat, 02 Mar 2013 10:05:27 -0500

For anyone who may listen, or possibly care:

I suppose i will release the url and password for my person journal blog.

fighting-every-day.tumblr.com

password is HOPE

Please no hatred…

HAHA.

Sat, 02 Mar 2013 09:34:53 -0500

Sometimes, i just completely Love how truly pathetic people are. It amuses me.

TRUE.

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 18:20:26 -0500

TRUE.

LOL right…

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 18:19:10 -0500

LOL right…

TRUE.

Tue, 22 Jan 2013 17:38:34 -0500

TRUE.

THIS REMINDS ME OF MY CAT.

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 11:57:05 -0500

THIS REMINDS ME OF MY CAT.

When you see it, REBLOG IT.

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 13:35:39 -0500

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

If you ever want to talk: My Tumblr ask is always open.

My kitty is so cute.<3

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 14:46:15 -0500

My kitty is so cute.<3

runbyhubble: Maroon 5 did a cover of “Pure Imagination” from...

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 09:47:28 -0500

runbyhubble:

Maroon 5 did a cover of “Pure Imagination” from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory for Mary Had a Little Amp and it is the most seductive children’s song I have ever heard.

Adam Lavine is perfection.

I wish I had pretty eyes…

Fri, 14 Dec 2012 16:01:52 -0500

I wish I had pretty eyes…

I just want to tell you, you're beautiful.

Thu, 13 Dec 2012 15:45:37 -0500

Thank you, that’s sweet of you to say. Too bad I can’t think that about myself.

This is what i tell people who try to tell me i’m pretty...

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 16:13:43 -0500

This is what i tell people who try to tell me i’m pretty or beautiful.

If you have been told the same thing but haven’t felt like it, and you need someone to talk to, you can talk to me.

Thank you all.<3

Articuno.<3

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 16:01:35 -0500

Articuno.<3

TRUE.

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 19:49:06 -0500

TRUE.

REBLOG IF YOU ARE AGAINST...

Thu, 06 Dec 2012 17:23:20 -0500

REBLOG IF YOU ARE AGAINST BULLYING.

waltzingwithwolves:

waltzingwithwolves:

I saw this on my dashboard.

Im sorry anons, but who the actual fuck do you think you are? This girl, this girl is beautiful. She’s one of my best friends and words cannot describe who much I love her. I would do anything for her. I have watched her love other people while I have loved her myself, and then I have seen those people hurt her. And you know what? Its been me thats been hurt the most throughout all of it. I have been hurt watching her love others and then hurt seeing those people hurt her. But I stuck by and was always there looking out for her.

She is one of the most amazing and kind people I have ever laid my eyes upon. She has been there for me through everything even though she doesn’t know it. She has never known any of my problems because I know she has her own. I see her posts on tumblr about her depression and you know what? I burst out crying every time I see them.

NO ONE deserves to have depression. NO ONE deserves to have stuff like that put in their ask box. NO ONE deserves to feel so alone they feel like they have to self harm.

Because of people like you anon, my first love committed suicide. Tomorrow is his 2 year anniversary. He had been through so much before I had met him. He’d been addicted to Cocaine, Heroin and Cannabis. He’d come out of it just before he’d met me. While I was with him I’d tried to commit suicide.. He’d stopped me and you know what? I am so greatful he did. He lived in America and we’d talk every night so I barely ever slept… I never knew about his tumblr until the day he took his life. He’d sent me the link to it. There on it, was a video. A video of him telling me how much he loved me. How I was his first love. And how he was so sorry for what he was about to do. I scrolled down and there was all these asks from anons telling him how ugly he was. How he deserved to die. And that he didnt deserve me, that I didnt love him.

Ever since I lost Roddy I have stopped over 20 people taking their lives. I have failed to stop 10. I blame myself everyday for that.

All these people have tried and succeeded to take their lives because of anons like you. I cannot lose Cylyna. I cannot lose another person.

Leave another anon message, I dare you. I actually love the fact that you think you’re so big and tough behind a computer screen sending hate and abuse to the bravest people out there. But I can bet you anything if it came down to saying it in person, you wouldnt. You would stand there, smile and compliment the person.

You cowardly piece of shit.

Thank you everyone whos given support to this so far.. I never expected for it to get this much. <3